The Waiting

“Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.”

~Psalm 27:14

I’ve never liked waiting. The thought of it makes my inmost being twist up into knots of impatient despair. Over the years I’ve learned to distract myself as I wait so as not to focus on the unpleasantness of it all. Sadly, I tend to do the same with God. He has me waiting…and perhaps the most difficult part is that I don’t even know exactly what it is I’m waiting for. If I knew, I could focus on whatever it is that’s coming….but then I wouldn’t need to put my faith in Christ. As it is, I’m left waiting in the unknown. And as it usually goes, I find myself turning to distractions. I just want the time to pass and the waiting to be over. Is that so bad?
But then I wonder why my heart is so weak. Why the waiting seems so long and pointless.
But sometimes, for just a moment, I turn away from the distractions and turn towards Him. This might not seem like a courageous thing to do- but anyone who has walked through a truly hard time knows how scary and daunting it can be to face reality head on. The amazing thing is that when I choose to be courageous and wait on Him, he immediately begins to fill me with the supernatural strength that only he can. And suddenly, the waiting doesn’t seem so pointless and long anymore. I am able to see the advantage of this season of life, the unique opportunities he has given me, the people he has blessed me with, and the growth he has brought about in me…here in the waiting.